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12:15 am - In other news

I've learned something about myself this week. I've always said that i hate moving. In a sense, this is true. The mindless lugging of "stuff" from one place to another is not something i enjoy. However the packing...i loves me some packing, particularly the organisation that comes with it. I also love the planning, and the thought of going somewhere new/better/different. Yay for the new place. I'm so going to paint. I always wanted to do that in MN when i could, but didn't get round to it.

Today, i skipped my drawing class. Somehow, i just couldn't stand being around today for a "critique" in Drawing 1 with a bunch of people who can draw already when my stuff looks like an 8 year-old did it. No, i'll never be able to make that medium-grey cone look like it's real, or even 3D. Why am i annoyed when i know this? Two reasons. First, because there have always been things in my head that i wish i could render onto paper. So many artists have skill/talent, but no "vision"; how fucked up that i can see entire worlds that make no sense in words but that i lack the talent to show anyone? Indeed. If there's something i know, it's that you can't teach someone with no talent at all to draw. I know you think you can, but i promise you, no. Your benefit: playing Pictionary against me guarantees a win ;) Second ( i guess this is related), i do fancy myself a photographer, and a good one at that. I can compose, pick a shot, set up what's beautiful. If you know me, you are aware that rusty bits of machinery and abstract nonsense are my passion. Sucks to be me that it's impossible to recreate that feeling with charcoal/ink/whatever.

I'm not going to be humble about this. I'm *very* good at doing the photo bit, so much so that i get freaked out by it sometimes. And, moreover, i know i could be good enough at any photo thing i put my mind to. Quibble if you like. Composition and form doesn't intimidate me. With drawing...the reality does. I just can't, no matter how much i'd like to. Of course, that doesn't stop me from being a total art snob. No, i couldn't do as well as you, but i damned well can tell you that you suck ass. I think it comes with being an alum of sjc, or maybe i'm just an elitist by nature (no really, this is a funny) ;) But i don't doubt my spacial sense, my artistic intuition...my sight.

I suppose i should mitigate all that by saying that i have a good number of endon_neu's paintings on display in my apartment, i very much want to find a frame i can afford for blackberry_roan's drawing that i love dearly, that i wish i had ad_radian's piece here, i carry around a photo-painting that i bought in Quebec when i was a child because i think it's so lovely, i'm having a net-friend do most of the design for my next tattoo, and that foxysquid's amazingness has always struck me with awe.